This is for people who ask me why I believe in Mata Amritanandamayi Amma.
My mom says my first darshan of amma was way in 1992, with a family friend in Thevara, Kerala. I just have a vague memory, dont quite remember the experience. After that from the days my memory got stored, all I remember asking is why people worshipped this human - god. But I never got an answer. Life moved on, then came AMMA s 50th birthday. I wondered why there was a big fuss about celebrating her birthday. Roads blocked. Stadium full of celebration, people from all over the world. But all I was bothered about was my dad turning fifty that very september 2003. Then life came to a standstill in may 2010, when we lost our guardian, all in all. Achan left leaving all four of us lost, scared, noone to turn to. I remembered praying to god for courage, strength to move on. Those of you who know me, very well knows how strong and independent I tend to be. It took someones absence to make me realize how depended I was. I so badly wanted to cry out, but tears refused to come. I wished I could just delete the episode and remove the pain. I just didnt know how, and I struggled to move on. I became more and more short tempered, my mom would probably say I was hell at home. Few months later, AMMA enters our lives. I would not say I changed into a devotee the moment I saw her. All i remember is crying when she hugged. I dont know what I cried for. I just did. This kept happening, everytime I met her. Slowly I realized, everytime I cried, I am letting go of my sorrows and . I started feeling lighter and felt I was getting the strength to forget and move on. Yet that void in our lives remained. Void to an extent was filled by Sivanchettan , Yes, achan is irreplacable, but I should say Sivanchettan did do a good job and he came into our lives cause of AMMA. And ofcourse, how can I forget our darling little Krishna, who erased the remaining void.
Amma didnt miraculously erase my sorrows, but she gave the strength to move on. Amma didnt stop the bad happening to me, but she gave me the courage to face it. She made me realise the strength of love, patience and compassion. She was never sympathetic everytime i went to her depressed, instead gave me a huge hug with a loving smile making me feel i am not alone.
And I never realised, but People tell me I am a changed person now. Ofcourse, I owe a lot of that to my husband , whom I believe AMMA brought into my life.
And thats how I started praying silently to AMMA and believing, cause I know she would be there for me , protecting me like my dad would have. And she has proved it million times.
So now I know and have accepted that bad can happen, things we cannot change, I also know I would
overcome it. Thanks to my family and AMMA.
And if you say god is someone who answers your prayers, yes then to me AMMA is god.
Om Amriteshwariyeh Namah
My mom says my first darshan of amma was way in 1992, with a family friend in Thevara, Kerala. I just have a vague memory, dont quite remember the experience. After that from the days my memory got stored, all I remember asking is why people worshipped this human - god. But I never got an answer. Life moved on, then came AMMA s 50th birthday. I wondered why there was a big fuss about celebrating her birthday. Roads blocked. Stadium full of celebration, people from all over the world. But all I was bothered about was my dad turning fifty that very september 2003. Then life came to a standstill in may 2010, when we lost our guardian, all in all. Achan left leaving all four of us lost, scared, noone to turn to. I remembered praying to god for courage, strength to move on. Those of you who know me, very well knows how strong and independent I tend to be. It took someones absence to make me realize how depended I was. I so badly wanted to cry out, but tears refused to come. I wished I could just delete the episode and remove the pain. I just didnt know how, and I struggled to move on. I became more and more short tempered, my mom would probably say I was hell at home. Few months later, AMMA enters our lives. I would not say I changed into a devotee the moment I saw her. All i remember is crying when she hugged. I dont know what I cried for. I just did. This kept happening, everytime I met her. Slowly I realized, everytime I cried, I am letting go of my sorrows and . I started feeling lighter and felt I was getting the strength to forget and move on. Yet that void in our lives remained. Void to an extent was filled by Sivanchettan , Yes, achan is irreplacable, but I should say Sivanchettan did do a good job and he came into our lives cause of AMMA. And ofcourse, how can I forget our darling little Krishna, who erased the remaining void.
Amma didnt miraculously erase my sorrows, but she gave the strength to move on. Amma didnt stop the bad happening to me, but she gave me the courage to face it. She made me realise the strength of love, patience and compassion. She was never sympathetic everytime i went to her depressed, instead gave me a huge hug with a loving smile making me feel i am not alone.
And I never realised, but People tell me I am a changed person now. Ofcourse, I owe a lot of that to my husband , whom I believe AMMA brought into my life.
And thats how I started praying silently to AMMA and believing, cause I know she would be there for me , protecting me like my dad would have. And she has proved it million times.
So now I know and have accepted that bad can happen, things we cannot change, I also know I would
overcome it. Thanks to my family and AMMA.
And if you say god is someone who answers your prayers, yes then to me AMMA is god.
Om Amriteshwariyeh Namah
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